*when things seem bigger than they really do*

Guess its just me or other people as well? Sometimes, things that seem normal to others tend to be overly emphasized in my fragile mind. I'll just keep thinking and thinking, and slip into thinking negatively. Things just go downhill from there, ending up in me being depressed what so ever.

I admire those people whom know what to do and what not to do. These people are usually decisive and strong willed. They don't let anything get to them and they never let emotions get the better of them. They persevere and succeed in life later on.

I cant.. i'm not that kind of person, or rather not old enough. i wish I am though. I let things get to me too easily. I fail as a true blue man. I'm still a small boy whom lack maturity(i'll die in a war surely). I cant handle stuff as well as a grown up man should be able to. Be it my studies, soccer or relationships.. I always let emotions take over my mind and commit stupid mistakes.

I've seen it this saying somewhere. "Every man has two weaknesses, women and money." That kinda left me pondering.. I've seen stories of sad love stories of broken hearted guys unfold before my very eyes. The guy was too clingy, too possessive, thought too much, easily jealous, and very indecisive whereas the ger was strong willed, not bothered by the guy's wayward behavior and tolerant. But we all know, there's a limit to everything and thus, the guy's heart was broken.

To put it simply, the guy seriously lacked maturity in handling relationships. and it'll never succeed till the guy finally decides to grow up. the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. that's all i guess, i feel better now.

-that's why(you go away)-