*oh thank goodness...*

There's many thing i'm grateful for today. really elated that she didnt reject the roses. thought she would.. and it'll be an ultimate rejection. and hope she keeps them too, and enjoy the chocolates that came with it.. then, i'll be more den happy.

Yesh!!! 3e5 clinched the 2nd place for soccer! and i scored the winning goal in the match that separates us from 3n2. they got the 3rd placing. that moment was precious, i just ran and turned completely insane after scoring. ahh... i can remember every single detail. Well done ben, qin yu, kenny, leonard, jun gang and young wei. all of us made it.

Ive always lost in interklas soccer. for both sec 1 and sec 2. sho yup, the fact that i stopped the tradition of losing adds on to the joy. we won!!! YESH YESH YESH!

she didnt come though. sigh.. cldnt share the joy with her.. i don't even dare to talk to her now. i can only look at her from afar, and look at her blog,(i wonder hus enshan) her msn nickname etc. "the worst way to miss someone is seating right beside her, knowing you cant have her". So darn true.

na don pity me, i deserve tis tragic ending. it happened because of my faults, my mistakes. but i just wanna do my best , my very best. till i won't be able to do so..

alwights, ive gotta hab some food, didnt eat much today. and ultimately.. 2 days left.

- you were there.. out there, sharing the joy with me when i clinched the goal, when the final whistle sounded. Perhaps, it's just some silly imagination of mine. but i cant help it, for you're there in my heart..-

*time's up.. soon*

Alwights.. just feeling pretty moody at the moment. so i just vent it out here. the end of our school term's coming, 3 days more to be exact.

Sigh.. i'm not exactly looking forward to it.. coz i noe, based on our current situation.. we don't even talk when we bump into each other. not even a hi. and with just 3 days.. things cant possibly improve from there. i really hate it, just 3 days more, i won't get to see her anymore.. anymore anymore!

ah well.. what can i possibly do? 3 days more, and i guess, everything will be over then. and i noe i won't be able to take that easily. but its okae, i have help.

-other girls will come along, they always do. but what's the point when all i want is you.-

*fiesta*

Boo! rushing through tis update to show that I am still well and kicking here. Thank goodness i didnt retain, else i don't noe how am i gonna face my future. so now i guess im taking as a sign, a sign for me to buck up.

fiesta tml. wonder how my klas will do. haha, hopefully good. i'm a face painter! bwahah. and umm, tml dere's interklas as well. sec 3 2nd round. hope 3e5 manage to get into the finals at least. wish us luck.

i guess that's about it. short and simple.

*let's get the party started*

So exams are finally over. cheerios for those hu have completed all of their exams and keep going for those hu are still have a few more papers to go. haha, so i sppose its time to relax and stuff, but i just cant help but to worry i might retain. argh, if only i can get to know my results earlier ya?

went to bugis junction today. bought a new converse cap and watched wimbledon. hahaha wimbledon rocks man, its a really show and it'll be a pity if i spoil it for you. go catch it urself, you won't regret, fer sure.

hrmm, it still hurts now and then, but i tink its better already. step by step, day after day, months after months, i'll eventually make it. right..?

*vending machine!*

Below cld very well be the lamest thing u ever read in your life time. You've been warned.

"yeap, the vending that you always look for whenever you're thirsty. You've just gotta pop in some coins and there you go, a chilled drink to quence your thirst. That explains why some people treat coins as though they are made of gold.

Success can be related to vending machine as well. Let's start with the input of the coins. the coins are simply, our efforts. Ever notice how the drinks vary in prices? Normally, the nicer drinks cost more than any average drink ya? So, in order to achieve longer lasting success(for eg. 100 plus for ur thirst), more effort have to be put in.

I'm sure all of you have seen people insert the coins in a real hurry. what happens? the coins just won't be accepted by the vending machine, and comes out from the bottom instead. This proves that there is no short cut to success and that patience plays a vital role in achieving success.

Naturally, if there's room for success, there's room for failures as well. So is there a relationship between failures and e vending machine? Yes. Ever tried putting coins into machine, but no matter how hard you press the button for your desired drink, nothing comes out? Thereafter, you start to panick and press the "coin return" button, but to your horror, only air molecules came out. Then, you just groan and grumble, kick the machine in sheer disgust and walk away having your day totally ruined. Just because the machine "ate" your money.

Isn't that how u feel when you thought you put in so much effort, yet the result of your efforts are fruitless? Say your business, relationships or scientific experiments, many times you'll experience tis kind of situation.

Don't ever take success for granted. Yes you might be happy that you've achieve so much, but that doesnt mean the success u enjoyed will be permanent. anything can happen. and failures shld not be treated too seriously. if you never taste failures before, how are you able to appreciate success?

I'm sure failures are part and parcel of life. Learn from your mistakes and strive hard to achieve success. and study the crappy theory of vending machine! "


Yeap. its written by me. did it during geography exam. haha, it's really lame donch u think. Guess i just got a lil too bored. alrights, time to pick up my chemistry stuff and study. good day all.

*winning eleven 8!*

bwahaha, winning eleven 8 rocks man. just bought it today, now im kinda addicted to it. hrmm.. well.. i guess i'll study soon after tis, or maybe after the england soccer match. i dont wanna retain this year man.. really screwed up my secondary 3.

played loads of soccer yesterday, dink from 1 pm to 7pm ba. so all of us were really tired, been ages since i play soccer due to the blardy exams. but nevertheless, it was darn fun. went to stay over at Benjamin's house later on at night. sigh, i'm really a pig, i slept so early over there, wasted my life and time.

as for how i am currently feeling.. hrmm.. aint exactly sure. Mixed feelings i guess. but i promise i won't be so foolish to even attempt to kill myself. now im just trying to keep myself as occupied as possible, so i won't go around thinking so much. to my frens all there, really thanks for your concern.

-i know i know i know!!!!!!!!!!-

so the news are spreading around pretty hotly. i know i know i know, i know i'm the dumbest person alive, why wld a sane person ask for break up when in their heart and mind, they wish they didn't ask at all? Call me insane or something. Scold me please.

Why why why? will anyone just bother to ask me why? and now everybody claims i asked for break up due to anger. It wasn't due to anger. It wasn't due to anger. It wasn't due to anger. nobody will understand how i feel exactly.. nobody will even bother. ARGH!!!!!!

i'm the dumbest guy alive. even mr benson teo repeatedly asked me is there a chance to salvage the relationship. I really wanna kill myself right now, spare myself from tis endless torture. DAMN THIS FRICKING WORLD! ARGHHHH!!!!!

*coming out of the shell*

Boo yea guys! I guess i shan't hide anymore. Time to come out of my "comfort zone" and face the harsh reality. Yeap, some of you might have already noticed, i'm out of my recent relationship. Nah i may look innocent and stuff, but the fault lies in me. I committed grave mistakes that can never be forgotten nor forgiven. shan't reveal much about it.. kinda private.

I guess i did learn from mistakes(unfortunately ..for getting over people only). Tis time round, i chose to move on much earlier than previously. Nah not because i love her lesser or anything, i just don't wanna end up lost and depressed again. you'll find out that there's not much point crying over spilled milk someday. (i admit, i did cry pretty badly), crying won't get her back. simple as that. I guess i shld be happy that it happened, and not cry because it ended.

I'm not sure if i can do so successfully. There'll definitely be back lashes. i may just break down again. i'll be seeing her in school for quite some time too. it'll be hard, but i'll try. i'll endure those heart wrenching moments, time will ease all this ryte? And yup, to my good friends(neglected all of u once again.. im sorry), this is time i really need you guys.. to help me up and get me back to singlehood. oh yeah, i msut take this opportunity to thank tat yi. i'll do so later.

dum di de dum. I'll review my recent relationship and find out what my faults are. what went wrong etc. but naaaah, im not gonna be desperate and look for gers to be my significant other. Like the term goes, "significant" means someone really special and important. I'll let fate decide for me.

Sigh.. all the memories we shared and stuff. Hard to put them aside and move on ya? the best way is not to chuck away those memories, the best way is to realise that it's all over, and bring along those good memories with you. ouch.. my heart hurts!! =x

here are some words i would like to tell him or her.(no they are not my last words. i still wanna live!!)

sam: you're a really great gal. to think u can stand my crap throughout.. and be there for me whenever im down or lost. i just didnt appreciate u well enough.. and now that we arent lovers, i'll still be around for you, as a friend at least right..? :)

tat yi: thks for being there for me man. Both of us are really similar in our thinking and thats what that makes us click right? hope u get your gal shoon.

solomon: haha, ure chatting wib me ryte now. hope u and her can sort out all your problems. thks for your advice too. takaire!

delphine: hahaha, my bestest best best mei mei. really appreciate ur help.

m.c: sorry to have disappointed you. really screwed up my life despite ur kind efforts to guide me. but really thank you.. i will get my life back on track. and hope we meet up someday.

hui ting: i cherish your patient effort to cheer me up too. thanks loads!

you know who u are: i didnt by any chance snatch her away from you. sho don bother to gloat at me.

That's about it. thks for reading my lengthy post. love is precious, don't ever take it for granted.