*coming out of the shell*

Boo yea guys! I guess i shan't hide anymore. Time to come out of my "comfort zone" and face the harsh reality. Yeap, some of you might have already noticed, i'm out of my recent relationship. Nah i may look innocent and stuff, but the fault lies in me. I committed grave mistakes that can never be forgotten nor forgiven. shan't reveal much about it.. kinda private.

I guess i did learn from mistakes(unfortunately ..for getting over people only). Tis time round, i chose to move on much earlier than previously. Nah not because i love her lesser or anything, i just don't wanna end up lost and depressed again. you'll find out that there's not much point crying over spilled milk someday. (i admit, i did cry pretty badly), crying won't get her back. simple as that. I guess i shld be happy that it happened, and not cry because it ended.

I'm not sure if i can do so successfully. There'll definitely be back lashes. i may just break down again. i'll be seeing her in school for quite some time too. it'll be hard, but i'll try. i'll endure those heart wrenching moments, time will ease all this ryte? And yup, to my good friends(neglected all of u once again.. im sorry), this is time i really need you guys.. to help me up and get me back to singlehood. oh yeah, i msut take this opportunity to thank tat yi. i'll do so later.

dum di de dum. I'll review my recent relationship and find out what my faults are. what went wrong etc. but naaaah, im not gonna be desperate and look for gers to be my significant other. Like the term goes, "significant" means someone really special and important. I'll let fate decide for me.

Sigh.. all the memories we shared and stuff. Hard to put them aside and move on ya? the best way is not to chuck away those memories, the best way is to realise that it's all over, and bring along those good memories with you. ouch.. my heart hurts!! =x

here are some words i would like to tell him or her.(no they are not my last words. i still wanna live!!)

sam: you're a really great gal. to think u can stand my crap throughout.. and be there for me whenever im down or lost. i just didnt appreciate u well enough.. and now that we arent lovers, i'll still be around for you, as a friend at least right..? :)

tat yi: thks for being there for me man. Both of us are really similar in our thinking and thats what that makes us click right? hope u get your gal shoon.

solomon: haha, ure chatting wib me ryte now. hope u and her can sort out all your problems. thks for your advice too. takaire!

delphine: hahaha, my bestest best best mei mei. really appreciate ur help.

m.c: sorry to have disappointed you. really screwed up my life despite ur kind efforts to guide me. but really thank you.. i will get my life back on track. and hope we meet up someday.

hui ting: i cherish your patient effort to cheer me up too. thanks loads!

you know who u are: i didnt by any chance snatch her away from you. sho don bother to gloat at me.

That's about it. thks for reading my lengthy post. love is precious, don't ever take it for granted.