*i'm back..*

Yeap, back from a 5 day stint over at Outward Bound Singapore! not exactly happy tho.. just feels weird going back home. not that i don want to, its just that i rather spend my life in e forest, peaceful and serene, aint that great? and habing a group of friends talking cock all e time..

okay, let's go! i shall now talk about what i went through. it's tough, not as tough as mt ophir tho, but much more exciting in my opinion. okae the ferst day, was introduced to our bestest best best instructor ever..! her name's Li Shan. the perfect role model for youngsters like us. she's young yet she's sho wise. always caring for us, always sharing wisdom and teaching us life lessons via various challenges. she's simply the best! will miss her badly.

okae, had an ice breaking session and got to know more of my group mates. they are great btw, all of them.. we complement each other and conflicts were minimal! my group ish Amundsen. In case you're wondering hu's that person, he's the first person to set foot on South pole. kewl eh?

the most memorable moment was during the tunneling. well, we had to walk through sum woods in e dark and den crawl through a tunnel. thankfully it was in pairs, i wld be sho much more afraid to do it alone. (but i will laaa! =x) the tunnel was scary man, you cant see your fingers, and the way to get out ish to rely on ur sense of touch and possibly hearing. the tunnel's kinda small too, sho dere isnt much space fer u to move about. I'll never forget how it feels wen i crawled and navigated e way out.

and the bond between one and another amundsen mates were great. all of can easily click wib one another, sharing problems, cracking jokes etc. sho yup, hopefully we'll meet up someday, together with li shan , our instructor.

me will never forget the life lessons. learnt how to be more independent, and giving gives u more satisfaction than taking. i'll try to apply it in reality, it wun be easy, but i'll try my bestest best. sho yup , to end it all, here's some words li shan told us.

Go where you want to go. Do what you want to do. Be what you want to be. The obs spirit!

-i'm missing you, all e time , all along, always.-

*the reason*

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?

Found that pretty meaningful. guess its trying to bring out that if u like a person, let her/him know. if you don't, you may just lose him/her to somebody else. and the regret that comes.. just hurts real bad. (p.s i want you to stay)

anyways, today's real boooring. Chose to skip PoA lesson. haha, just pure lazy. =x. Then just kinda practice my taekwondo pattern and mass gbing wib my pals. Pretty boring really.. i'm a no-lifer.

Had a really bad nightmare by the way. guess its my weird thought patterns that made up the nightmare. ahh.. i've gotta stay cool now man. Else i'm gonna die in an accident in Outward Bound singapore.

Speaking of which, its just 2 days more! I'm not exactly looking forward to it. Not emotionally prepared(physically i'm always am =x). I'm still kinda shaky at the moment, time to pluck out some courage to face the 5 days baby! I'm not worried bout the obstacles there.. i'm worried what might happen when im away.

thank goodness sam's back at home safe and sound. feel kinda better now. ciao peeps.

*less than 4 mths*

and counting down. its just less than 4 mths to eternal depression. how i wish time could just stop.

Alright, weee! today's the last day of school. And it means i have to go for Outward Bound Singapore reaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllly soon.(this monday btw) I'm nervous, not exactly tho, perhaps more of worrying. anything can happen in 5 days. I just fear that.. i'm not given enough time to express my love or something. Like an air plane taking off with a small area of run way. will it crash or not, that's the question.

I'm an emotional person. I think so too. I'm a guy who kinda doesnt acts like one. Tend to over worry and hyper sensitive. even mdm jamillah said so. She's my form teacher anyways. She just kinda warned me about Boy Girl relationships. told me never ever let it affect ur studies and most relationships don't last, at our age.

Sho im wondering.. wouldnt it be a self fufilled prophecy if i keep that "ahh.. its gonna end anyway" kind of mindset in dealing my current relationship? if i don't expect it to last, will it ever last? Sort out my thoughts please, give me all the answers i want please.

haha, another teacher told me this again. "you can do anything under the sun, but just don't get caught". i still remember, my pri skewl teacher, mr chong, told me the same thing as well. Heh, great minds think alike ya?

preparing to go for taekwondo shoon. it's so weird being a white belt and having a girl friend whos black. eh, but dont look down at me, i get black belt let u see =x.

-there's no point in stopping and notice how many people are there trying to outdo, outperform, outrun you. What matters most is that you keep on running, and be loved in return.-