*big world small me*

Man! I need serious help. Suddenly this question just hit me out of nowhere.. "What am i doing with my life?"

I've been gaming alot recently, yes, in a year in which i ought to concentrate on my homework instead. Yet i cant stop myself from doing so. At least i know where i'm heading to at the moment, so maybe its not that bad? Whatever. I am heading towards deep shyt if i were to continue spending my life, gaming away.

So why game? Not that the game is fun whatsoever. Its because my buddies are playing it as well. If one day they were to set on quitting the game, i suppose i'll follow suit.

I hate myself for wanting to win so much. Yeah, i admit, i'm a person who hates to lose. Anything of interest to me. take soccer for example, i hate losing to my opponents, and the irony ish that my opponents tend to be my good pals in school. and nah, i wont care if a zillion people wins me academically.

Ah, i just felt that i need to vent out a little. I had so many things to blabber about, but somehow, my mind just went blank at the critical point. I seriously need a new sense of direction in life. Something to aim and strive for. Damn, i think i should get some sleep now.

Ci de ku zong ku, fang wei ren shang ren. To dare the hardship among hardships, unto atop the fullgrown man among men.