the rule of reciprocation*

I realised after 2 months studying over at Temasek Polytechnic, I haven't blog about my experiences even once. Seems really bad considering this blog of mine is serving as a way to keep my memories. I guess it'll be really interesting reading them 10 years later.

It was awesome that I got into the same course as Ker Hui. But that was it. I was hoping that Cupid Angel will place us into the same class. Imagine being able to see each other, have lunch together, and go home together everyday. However, Cupid Angel has other plans for us. Perhaps it's even a test for me. A test of my character. Anyway.. even lovers need some time away, far away, from each other.

Cupid Angel may choose to ignore my wish, but Lady Luck took its place. So she placed one of my closest friends, Tat Yi, in the same class as me. And together with some fabulous classmates of mine, all with colourful personalities.

Of course, being me, i'm never satisfied. Well i wished there were more guys. What's the point of having so many girls in my class? (fyi, its 20 girls to 6 guys). With that, i'm reduced to playing soccer only once a week. Yeah, a rather drastic change from almost everyday in my secondary school days.

And thankfully, i didn't have much difficulty being part of a wonderful clique. 4 guys 4 girls. Jimmy and Han Lin make good friends and the four girls are really friendly and amiable in their own ways. But somehow i felt.. i didn't belong.

I'm never comfortable being around girls, as a matter of fact. Guess it's just my innate nature to be shy around girls. And also with my commitment with Ker Hui, I felt that i should't get too close to any other girls. It's probably because I don't want to see the same thing happening to me. She, being close to some other guy.

It might happen someday. I don't know. And I dare not think so much. Or maybe i'm just being too serious in this relationship. Of course.. I can push everything to "If things are meant to be, then it'll be".

If only it's that easy.