a wall

I myself was wondering how long will it last. The wall that i've built around my fragile self. The wall that has been helping me block out all sorts of negative thoughts and neediness. And today..the wall is showing signs of crumbling. And i can't seem to stop it.

It sure feels really weird. It's like deja vu. History is beginning to unfold right in front of my eyes for the 2nd time again. I'm like in front of a crossroad; and only one path is the right one. I've taken the wrong one before, and it seems like i'm taking the same path again. I don't want to.. but i can't help it.

Guess i'll just have to see how it goes. I'll just have to run around and make sure the wall that i've erected does not crumble. I'll just have to stick to the right path. I'll just have to live my life. And i'll just have to try my hardest. Make it or break it. Do or die. Now or never.

I hate it when i'll have to say goodbye to you.