im all blank

Oh man! I had so much to write about when i was on my home. Now that i'm actually putting words into this blog of mine, i cant think of anything. I feel so stupid at the moment man. haha.

Well, i just returned home after playing pool for a few hours. I swear pool, on your day, can make you superbly happy. But when you start missing every single shot, and the white ball seem to have a liking for the "hole", you'll feel super lousy. Ah. Rant rant rant.

Yea man. Was reading newpaper yesterday. And i read about the footballer Wayne Rooney. It's pretty weird that everybody seem to be siding his fiery temperament. Hello! He clapped sarcastically in front of the referee and you are saying he's not in wrong?!

Afterall, it's true that people like him perform better when their mood is fiery. But well.. not for me. For me, i'll have to stay calm and relaxed in order to do anything well. Be it soccer, pool or any other things that i do. And whenever i start to lose it, and sink into the "fire" mode. That's it, i'll start being foolish. I'll attempt to hurt players on the soccer field. Even if he's my friend at that very point of time. You are my opponent. You are my enemy.

Now i know that's pretty scary. I've changed. Or rather, i've been trying to change and i think i'm kinda improving. AT least i dont go crazy that often now. Yeah, i'm bad tempered.

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Break ups. Well saw a guy on my home just now. He was on the fone and squatting by the pathway. Being curious, i kinda tried to overhear what he was talking about. (i'm sorry, i was way too curious) Though he was mumbling, i could figure out he was asking for a patch. And he kinda got rejected. A sad sight.

If you find that falling in love is the best thing that can happen to you, a break up or rather you being dumped is the complete opposite. All sorts of negative feelings will just appear out of nowhere. And trust me, they are gonna stick with you for quite some time. Been there, done that. I'm experienced. haha

And i figured out the way to let go! the way to enlightenment. and the way to buddha.(alwight that was lame) And now.. i hope i dont have to let go again. The signs are scary. Ominous signs. I shall let time to be the answer..

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Army cheer. Suddenly just tot of putting it up

Purple light!
In the valley!
That is where,
I wanna be.
With my friends,
best companions
with my rifle and my buddies and me..

SOC! (standard obstacle course) Sibei jia lat!
Do PT (physical training) La gi worse!
Everyday, kenna tekan (punished)!
With my rifle and my buddies and me...

Booking out,
Saw my girlfriend,
Saw her with
Another man!
Heart broken,
back to army...
With my rifle, and my buddies and me...
(i love tis part)

Purple light!
At the war front.
that is where,
my body lies.
If i die,
would you...
bury me...
with my rifle and my buddies and me...!

WhOa, i'M feEling PatRiotic! I miss my NCC life.

I just can't help it. My desire to be with you is just like a flame. Burning brighter and brighter with each passing day. Even the rain, is not able to stop it. Only you... can.