*lapse of concentration*

Hmm.. been long it seems eh? Let's back track a little... Last entry reads: 4/4/05. my bad guys, been 21 days! Ahh, didnt have much to write lately. You know, you really need to have some sort of inspiration to write sometimes. Or maybe let your mind drift to a galaxy far far away often, so that you can come up crap to talk about.

Anyways, the reason why i didnt was i guess.. because of the game i'm currently super hooked on to. It is none other than Warcraft 3 : DoTa. Not only does it makes you hooked, it makes your mind go figuring out ways to counter this move, that move etc. Yes sounds like chinese chess. but way more fun. (if my dad see this, he'll prolly sigh and drop me a comment, wishing me to do the same to tackle those freaking maths questions)

You know sometimes, your body feels very tired but the smartest organ in you just refuse to comply with the physical needs of your body. Perhaps, mental needs come first. Well, it happened for me last night. There i was, rolling around in my bed, as thoughts after thoughts attacked me, one after another. Before you brush it off as some mental problems, hear me out.

Memories. good or bad, unforgettable or forgettable. doesnt matter. but one thing that's certain that once you have memories, it can never be erased.

I was reminisicing over my previous loves. All the sweet and bad ones. (i'm a balanced person). And i realised both actually hurts. It's pretty duh for bad ones, but for the sweet ones. why? Although it happened once, but the reality has it that you no longer get to relive such memories. Sigh yea?

Don't get me wrong. I believe i've totally got over them. But i guess its this phase now that i can bring back memories and indulge in the afterglow. Cool huh? Speaking of which, my love life's barren! Seriously there's no girl i can place my eyes on at the moment. Blessing? Maybe.

Alwight i know this entry kinda sucks, but hey just treat this entry as some CPR exercise. i'm trying to revive this poor blog of mine. lalala.. the keyboard spoils here.


sometimes, one can be happier with his ability to think taken away..